Today is the first day I am making a blog dedicated to you APP.
Who read blogs nowadays? At least not my blog. SO this blog will be my escape.
This is the first day I am blogging about you APP. I miss you so bad but I don't know how to tell you I miss you after all those that happen. You probably moved on already and I am still stuck dwelling about you. I am foolish to be dwelling about you right?
The things you did makes me mad sometime but i try to keep it in so you wouldn't notice. I didn't want to mess things up but I guess i just can't take it anymore. Maybe it was a mistake for me to send you a freaking goodbye email but I feel like it is better for the both of us. OR at least you. I didn't really want to send you that email. Do you think that it was really easy for me to just walk away from everything that we had? Even though it was short, I just wish things didn't went down the way it did. I blame myself for having no confidence in you. I hate the fact how I feel like you will leave me the second time. I know you said you won't leave me anymore but somehow I just didn't take it.
I honestly fall for you at a pace that I never thought I would. As much as I would love to get to know you, i fell for you already. I mean if I didn't have anything for you I wouldn't have done the things I did. I read on your Facebook that you wish you can have someone to argue with and then get mad at you and then hug you out of nowhere and say I'm sorry. I really wished that I could be that person. But how can I try to be that person when you suddenly take that chance away from me. The way how you treated me, I can tell whats up but that doesn't mean I wanted to give up. I just really miss you. I want to wait for you at a place and when you arrive jump out and hug you and say I am sorry. I would do anything just to have you again.
I know I sent you the email already and there is nothing I can do to take it back. I wish that email somehow meant something to you because I haven't gotten a respond from you at all yet. I am so fluster at these kind of things to be honest. I may tell you one thing but deep down inside I want another. Just like how I told you that you didn't have to respond but deep down inside I really wanted you to respond. I really do hope that you can somehow read this but I doubt that you can because you don't even know that I have a blog.
I miss you so much to the point you are driving me crazy just thinking of you. Nothing I can do to keep myself to stop thinking about you. Sorry...
