So close yet so far

You're so close to me yet it's so far to hold on to you.

What to do?

From the moment

From the moment.....your breath touched my ear, I knew you have already captured my heart.

Once again

I am left out by each and every single one of you. I'm done trying.

Dai Lo B!

Thanks man!

I really like the headphone you got me. I've been using it ever since yesterday and I am loving it like crazy. It's been a long ass time since I actually got some good headphone! Thanks again!I've been blasting my music through these headphones. I really appreciate these headphone! T Love your ass Dai Lo B but you still gotta listen to me cuz I am older than you! =D... So.. much has been going on. I've been re-evaluating how people has been treating me. Some treat me like I am made out of ATM machine, while others treat me like shit...less than a friend. Something just doesn't feel like the same anymore when I am around them. Just like the times when I hang out with Edmund, it doesn't seem as real as it was back in the days. I guess back in the days when he was still in Davis, he would like text me at least but now its just like ..... exactly like those dots. It's just feel so fake for some reason. Whether he is being fake or not, I have no idea but at least thats the feeling I get. I'm not gonna dwell on it anymore or whatever because I already said all I really needed to said on my last post. At least I can tell myself that I tried. If he doesn't want to be friends that is fine. I rather him just tell me strait up than to be fake. There are like a couple of more people too but ehh.. they're all the same to me now.

Maybe it's just me?

I am at work and work is so boring in the morning. Why not use this time to blog while I am having a cup of green tea =D. This might be rhetorical question but do you ever want to get treat the way you treat others? Who doesn't right? What happen if you don't get the same treatment you were giving to people? Should you not care anymore? So you have been treating me so differently ever since you came back here permanently. I don't know whether it was something I did to make you start treating me this way or what but I'm not buying the way how you are treating me now. It's just things seems different now. We make plans but somehow you always seems to forget that we make plans and do something else, or we already planned something but you end up doing something else. And we talk alot less now too. I just feel like if I don't initiate to find and talk to you, you would not have talked to me. Why is that? Why must I be the first one to do everything first? Before I always went with whatever you wanted to do when you call me up but now when I just want to hang out for a bit, excuses always comes up. People always tell me to talk to you and let you know how I feel but I just don't know how to start and also because I don't want to be the first one to start everything. Can't you just go according to my schedule for once? But i suppose not since it seems really hard for you to do so. Maybe because you feel like you don't need me anymore since you don't feel lonely after moving back here permanently. And I thought you're different from everybody else. I was treating you nice because I was hoping that you'll treat me as a friend but now it doesn't even seem like I am being treated as a friend. I'm just a human with feelings after all. Who says nice guy doesn't have feelings? Tea of My day: 6576-Amakusa Traditional Kamairicha: Pan-fried green tea carefully processed by a very traditional method in Kumamoto. This tea produced a strong toasty flavor and a mild refreshing sweetness to it. Deep and rich in grassy flavor.

New Beginning

Today is first day of school for Spring semester. For some reason I am feeling very nervous and anxious. I don't know why I feel this way. I am currently sitting in the library for my class to start. I don't want my class to start anytime soon. I just don't feel like going to class but I just have to suck it up. There have been so much that is happening lately. I don't even know where to begin. There is only a few of you that knows about it and thanks to you for listening. I am going to keep this post simple and short. I don't want it to go any longer lol. Just one more week and you can finally RIP. I love you.