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Lost and Hurt and Confuse and Anger.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Monday, February 23, 2009
值得流泪 (Worthy Tears or Worth to Cry)
Why, why do shit always happen? That cuz its life. I have hella flaws yet that doesn't mean you are perfect. Everyone has flaws. So why? I wouldn't speak about everything for everyone but one thing for sure, we are all feeling shitty now. We tried so hard just to make sure the past doesn't repeat itself but somehow we got the blame and then we become evil.We maybe wrong for the things that we do but we were really trying to help. But it seem like we made it worse didn't it?
Trust is the basic foundation of all relationship.
What went wrong? Me,Ann,Amy,Eric,Kevin,Ronald. all of us just need to chill out, yes including me. No one is perfect. All of us are the same. None of us are better than any other. Why are we all so tense up for? There should really be no reason for us to get mad or sad or get blame for something that is stupid. We all really just need to take a step back.
I'm not going to lie and I am just going to get on with the point. There are some people out there probably blame me and ann out there for something that we probably shouldn't have done. Yes, what done is done. We were not doing it on purpose but I am sorry if you just have to think that way. If people want to be mad at us for this really ignorant reason then they can be. Before you do though, just think why we did the things we do. If people really think that we are fucked up then they can be mad. But is being mad really the solution?
I am just really tired of whats been going on. Like real tired. and probably MOST of you guys are too. Sometimes, the things that you do might be your own business but you should at least have a sense of how it might affect others. I really don't know anymore. I feel like you are changing. All of us are changing for a fact because we are all just growing up. But before I have never seen this side of you. You probably don't notice it, but really, there are people out there who can't stand it anymore. Yes even i admit that I am changing too, and I do have attitude sometimes, but I don't think it has gone insane. Maybe you are just showing it to certain people because you either have something against us or you simply annoyed of us. Tell me, do you think that you are changing for the good? Just ask yourself that. If you are then there is really nothing I can do or say. I am not saying this because I am perfect and such, I am just saying it because I don't want you to get worse without noticing how you been treating us. Yes I am changing too, I'm not even sure if I am changing for the good or bad. we really do care about you regardless if you think we do or not. No matter if you were there for me or not, I would always be here for you.
NEXT.... We all really care about you. You just don't showcase enough of your emotions so we all thought that we don't care. Believe me, you are not alone in this. You are not alone in this world. And all of us are equal. EQUAL.
What do you do when you can't trust a person anymore? WTF is trust anyway? Can someone define it? This word TRUST TRUST TRUST is really driving me nuts now. Fuck this shit, I'm fucking tired of all the bullshit. Fuck the bullshit. Life is full of shit anyway. Fuck this. Fuck everything except for my life and Raymond Lam. Especially the Bullshit FUCK IT.
I SERIOUSLY GIVE UP.
Trust is the basic foundation of all relationship.
What went wrong? Me,Ann,Amy,Eric,Kevin,Ronald. all of us just need to chill out, yes including me. No one is perfect. All of us are the same. None of us are better than any other. Why are we all so tense up for? There should really be no reason for us to get mad or sad or get blame for something that is stupid. We all really just need to take a step back.
I'm not going to lie and I am just going to get on with the point. There are some people out there probably blame me and ann out there for something that we probably shouldn't have done. Yes, what done is done. We were not doing it on purpose but I am sorry if you just have to think that way. If people want to be mad at us for this really ignorant reason then they can be. Before you do though, just think why we did the things we do. If people really think that we are fucked up then they can be mad. But is being mad really the solution?
I am just really tired of whats been going on. Like real tired. and probably MOST of you guys are too. Sometimes, the things that you do might be your own business but you should at least have a sense of how it might affect others. I really don't know anymore. I feel like you are changing. All of us are changing for a fact because we are all just growing up. But before I have never seen this side of you. You probably don't notice it, but really, there are people out there who can't stand it anymore. Yes even i admit that I am changing too, and I do have attitude sometimes, but I don't think it has gone insane. Maybe you are just showing it to certain people because you either have something against us or you simply annoyed of us. Tell me, do you think that you are changing for the good? Just ask yourself that. If you are then there is really nothing I can do or say. I am not saying this because I am perfect and such, I am just saying it because I don't want you to get worse without noticing how you been treating us. Yes I am changing too, I'm not even sure if I am changing for the good or bad. we really do care about you regardless if you think we do or not. No matter if you were there for me or not, I would always be here for you.
NEXT.... We all really care about you. You just don't showcase enough of your emotions so we all thought that we don't care. Believe me, you are not alone in this. You are not alone in this world. And all of us are equal. EQUAL.
What do you do when you can't trust a person anymore? WTF is trust anyway? Can someone define it? This word TRUST TRUST TRUST is really driving me nuts now. Fuck this shit, I'm fucking tired of all the bullshit. Fuck the bullshit. Life is full of shit anyway. Fuck this. Fuck everything except for my life and Raymond Lam. Especially the Bullshit FUCK IT.
I SERIOUSLY GIVE UP.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
RECAP
This whole entire week was shitty due to the fact that I have test and essay due plus this saturday class. Lets see I forgot on tuesday or monday someone told me to leave tokbox cuz that person said he doesn't care. So fine! I will leave and there you go. I never have anything against you. I never even think that you always ignore me. You told me to leave so I walk out and fulfill what you told me to do. Sometimes I really don't know what to get from you, you make me feel unwanted alot of times. But life goes on DOESN'T it?
Lets see, on thursday I saw a white honda civic, omg I literally had a heart beat! Shit I miss being in that car, man. I remember you were showing off to me how you can drive with one hand. sigh.... KARMA
So as I said, THIS DAMN WEEK IS OVER! Im suppose to be sleeping now but I don't feel like it. I really want to sleep in and dont go to class tomorrow. Midterms are coming up and I feel like I am screwed. As of now, the only class that I really love is my Econ class and somewhat my english class plus ASAM. The other 2 is just like BLAH..
BLAH BLAH BLAH.
Lets see, on thursday I saw a white honda civic, omg I literally had a heart beat! Shit I miss being in that car, man. I remember you were showing off to me how you can drive with one hand. sigh.... KARMA
So as I said, THIS DAMN WEEK IS OVER! Im suppose to be sleeping now but I don't feel like it. I really want to sleep in and dont go to class tomorrow. Midterms are coming up and I feel like I am screwed. As of now, the only class that I really love is my Econ class and somewhat my english class plus ASAM. The other 2 is just like BLAH..
BLAH BLAH BLAH.
Greatness of a Hero
Greatness of a Hero is a really good ancient costume series that has Bernice Liu in it. This is a suspense drama where one of the empress rule over China. So to be exact, she is the king. Bernice is helping her dad cracking mystery. Sunny Chan is also in it and I think he will end up with Bernice.
The series is already half way through and I think the story is getting more interesting and more. I highly recommend it to people!
The series is already half way through and I think the story is getting more interesting and more. I highly recommend it to people!
Friday, February 20, 2009
Sadistic
I haven't been blogging because I am really lazy. I should really be going to sleep now since I have to wake up extra early 2morrow. But I feel like blogging now because I want to blog at least once before Feb ends.
Feb actually means alot to me, it has its history that only myself and a very few would know. I wouldn't say I am sad when this month arrive but I just think why couldn't we end it in a better way. Oh wells.
Since this month is Feb, I feel like its reminisce time and sadly enough this word "Sadistic" is a word I will never ever forget. I remember asking you what it meant and you answer it to me but for some reason it didn't get through into my head. Few months later I asked you again, and you repeat the meaning to me without saying anything yet. Like a month or so later again I ask you again and this time around you gave me that look like I am retarded. I wasn't playing around when I was asking you what it means because I keep on forgetting them. This is not the end of it, because I forgot it once again. FINALLY I ask you for the last time before it finally gets into my head. You yelled at me and say I better get it right this time, and the way how you say it is funny. and Once again you gave me that retarded look again. After that I for seriously got it in my head and never to ask people what it means again.
This word brought us argument, laughter, and stupidity. We had so much fun back then but what drove us to the way how we are now? Only if this word can bring us together again like the old day, then my life will surely be as light as the leaf. Because you were the only one was actually there for me throughout those 2 years that I have known you since the beginning. Once again I will never ever forget this word because of you. Even though you will never ever have a chance of reading this, I truly thank you for making me who I am today.
Feb actually means alot to me, it has its history that only myself and a very few would know. I wouldn't say I am sad when this month arrive but I just think why couldn't we end it in a better way. Oh wells.
Since this month is Feb, I feel like its reminisce time and sadly enough this word "Sadistic" is a word I will never ever forget. I remember asking you what it meant and you answer it to me but for some reason it didn't get through into my head. Few months later I asked you again, and you repeat the meaning to me without saying anything yet. Like a month or so later again I ask you again and this time around you gave me that look like I am retarded. I wasn't playing around when I was asking you what it means because I keep on forgetting them. This is not the end of it, because I forgot it once again. FINALLY I ask you for the last time before it finally gets into my head. You yelled at me and say I better get it right this time, and the way how you say it is funny. and Once again you gave me that retarded look again. After that I for seriously got it in my head and never to ask people what it means again.
This word brought us argument, laughter, and stupidity. We had so much fun back then but what drove us to the way how we are now? Only if this word can bring us together again like the old day, then my life will surely be as light as the leaf. Because you were the only one was actually there for me throughout those 2 years that I have known you since the beginning. Once again I will never ever forget this word because of you. Even though you will never ever have a chance of reading this, I truly thank you for making me who I am today.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Emotions are running wild
It is 12:05 A.M now and I should really be sleeping, but I have to drive my brother to the airport later around 2:30. Yes AM.. hes gonna go to NYC for 2 weeks or so.. Should I be happy I get the room by myself? No not really. I will feel lonely. OH wells.... 2 weeks should be fast but I'm sad right now.
Today in english class I actually participated, I was shock myself because then I normally don't raise my hand and participate. I was happy! I love that english class because it ain't that hard.
During this class... I finally decide to drop the "secret communication" because I realize that we don't even know each other. It bother me the whole day literally. Maybe not bother but I was thinking about it. I'm sad about that too.
Later on I met up with Nora and Kevin at the library and there wasn't any stupid study room so I couldn't eat. =(...anyhow I was helping Nora with her essay and writing a letter to Ann at the same time. It nearly took me 25 mins to write that letter shit.
I went home and nearly start transferring my series,anime,music,and pictures to my new hard drive. After that I started to watch this series called "Greatness Of A Hero" (I'll blog that one soon) and i would have to say its pretty good cuz Bernice is in it! =0... Anyhow, I went back to school early so Kevin doesn't have to be a loner =P... Econ class was sooooooo boring, and I swear I never ever wanted to leave that class more than today.
Hot Chocolate Buddy, remember the letter that I wrote to you on tuesday? I don't know why is it that I keep thinking about it. I said I would let go but somehow it will always come back to my mind. The funny thing is that we never ever even went to a level that we are both important to each other yet. So why did this surface? I miss it. So so so so so much. There's like alot that I want to tell someone too but I don't know who I can run to. I feel like I can run to nobody at all. Shit and tomorrow I would have to face biology class by myself tomorrow. Sigh, this is sad. FREAKING SAD. Since I had alot of emotions today, that is why I title this entry the way it is.
"It Doesn't Matter If We Will Meet Again
It Doesn't Matter If You Will Remember Me
I Just Want To Tell You A Secret
I Love You"
Today in english class I actually participated, I was shock myself because then I normally don't raise my hand and participate. I was happy! I love that english class because it ain't that hard.
During this class... I finally decide to drop the "secret communication" because I realize that we don't even know each other. It bother me the whole day literally. Maybe not bother but I was thinking about it. I'm sad about that too.
Later on I met up with Nora and Kevin at the library and there wasn't any stupid study room so I couldn't eat. =(...anyhow I was helping Nora with her essay and writing a letter to Ann at the same time. It nearly took me 25 mins to write that letter shit.
I went home and nearly start transferring my series,anime,music,and pictures to my new hard drive. After that I started to watch this series called "Greatness Of A Hero" (I'll blog that one soon) and i would have to say its pretty good cuz Bernice is in it! =0... Anyhow, I went back to school early so Kevin doesn't have to be a loner =P... Econ class was sooooooo boring, and I swear I never ever wanted to leave that class more than today.
Hot Chocolate Buddy, remember the letter that I wrote to you on tuesday? I don't know why is it that I keep thinking about it. I said I would let go but somehow it will always come back to my mind. The funny thing is that we never ever even went to a level that we are both important to each other yet. So why did this surface? I miss it. So so so so so much. There's like alot that I want to tell someone too but I don't know who I can run to. I feel like I can run to nobody at all. Shit and tomorrow I would have to face biology class by myself tomorrow. Sigh, this is sad. FREAKING SAD. Since I had alot of emotions today, that is why I title this entry the way it is.
"It Doesn't Matter If We Will Meet Again
It Doesn't Matter If You Will Remember Me
I Just Want To Tell You A Secret
I Love You"
Friday, February 6, 2009
Thanks For The 7 of You Guys.
I haven't blog for hella long, and exactly like what my title says, I love the 7 of you guys. Today was out of nowhere that Ann showed up around like 5 ish. I knew she didn't show up by herself cuz she would never do that for me =(.. so I was thinking maybe she was with Nora or sophia and vanessa. Then out of nowhere, this small and tiny girl walked in!.... its AMY!.... which maed me hella happy then out of nowhere, its JIMMY! I was like lemme guess Kevin is going to come! and it is!... then I was like aww man where is my carebear! I was thinking maybe he got locked up at home but out of nowere he came!!!!! Made my day!... we all chipped in to buy a super lotto ticket and hopefully we will win. And if we then its all because of the "great eight" that were together. Amy, Andrew,Ann,Eric,Jimmy,Kevin,Ronald,Xiao. Even though today missed Xiao and Ronald, I still love them.
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