The sky is blue

The sky is particular blue tonight.
Somehow the stars are shining bright.
As the stars are shining bright down on me,
it catches my attention. I raised my head up only to
finally realize how blue the sky is. Was it the reflection of the moon?
Why is it so blue?
Reflection of the water? I don't think so.


Either way a character died in prison break and it was really sad.

Fate+ Prison Break

Do you believe in fate? DO i believe in fate?
One of my co-workers was talking about fate.
she believed that everyone meets for some sort of reason.
Like we are meant to meet and then it has its own reason.
which makes to come and realize.
I do now infact that everything happen for a reason.
With you coming in to my life have gave me a better understanding.
I love the way how you taught me everything.
LIke my co-worker said. If it is meant to be, then eventually we will cross path again.
If we don't cross path again then it is not meant for us to cross path.

As I am getting closer to the series finale. My heart is pumping.
Everytime when I watch this, i won't be able to go to sleep.
Also this is always to some sort of surprise and twist which I love.
Prison Break alllllllllllllllllllll the way yeah!

2 jobs

Having two job is killing the shit out of me with 5 classes. Now you people without work shouldn't have any excuse of failing. Ahem my friend that goes to cal poly. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

Best Friend

What is exactly best friend? That question is lingering in my head. As this question is lingering in my head, the song that we both like very much is playing on my mp3 player? Can anyone tell me what is best friend? Surely I know it is just a title but somehow it has to mean something more than just a title? Right? Does best friends mean that 2 people have alot in common? I believe that best friend has alot in common yet alot in differences such as height size and personality and that is what it completes the part. You're a left hand and I am a right hand. Sword and shield. Ice and Fire. You get the idea. Can it also be the fact that people knows each other inside out. What kinda music they prefer? Also knows how you feel whether you are upset happy or mad?

I have no idea why this question is lingering in my head. It is just kind of a random thought. Would a best friend wait for you on your first job just to have lunch with you? Does a best friend goes out with you to do random rides within and outside of city and just chill like there is no tomorrow? Would a best friend tell everything to each other? Probably the question I have asked above would be yes for most of them. So tell me what is a best friend? Peas and a pod? Is best friend suppose to pick up where they left off if they haven't seen each other for the longest time ever? All these stupid thinking makes me wonder if best friend is really just a title or is best friend who is someone that is really close to you and taught you alot.

Is this meaningless? Isn't life is too short to be thinking about something like this? I want to go back in time and change somethings. who wouldn't? What is your happiest time of your life yet guys? Mine would be 2007 towards the end of senior year of high school. Preferably FEB.... =D Tell me yours. Goodnight world!

School

School is a bitch right now because it just is. I shouldn't have taken 5 classes this semester and with econ 3 and accountant together at the same time. I should not have take speech and english both at the same time as well. It feels like hell and the classes that i am taking require so much more time of me than i can give. I've been focusing hard on accounting and guess what? I am doing good in that class but i've been focusing so much in that class that i am neglecting my other class. WHy can't i be as smart as you guys. I am so not school material. I hate school. WHy can't i focus more in class and study more or put more effort. I hate it. I am still tripping out about my speech tmr as I have nothing to talk about at the moment. I am so behind in school and i hate it. Only if school doesn't require so much time. I lost the drive to transfer this year. I should have taken my time so that I wouldn't be pressuring myself. I miss the funs in LA. I miss you XIao JIMMy and rOnaLD. I wish you guys can be here right now because it just makes everything feel so right. I just want my classes to be over for this semester. I want speech to be done right now.

I just don't like my life at the moment. I shouldn't be complaining because there are people way far worse than I am but I can't help it. I can't even watch prison break without falling asleep now because I am too tired. Everyday when I get home all I do is just want to sleep. I have no days off now. One of the days is always either work or school and both! Why can't I enjoy prison break like i did before? Why can't i wake up without having the feeling of going to work and hate it. Why must I love teas? Sigh. My only escape is the land of dream land. I can't even find the time to talk to gossip buddy.

Time

Since when did time became so important? I don't have time for myself anymore =(...
This is sad! It was boring at work today. I pretty much did the same thing as I did yesterday which is to practice on my gift wrapping. Why do I need to gift wrap? I am a guy after all. I should not have agree to come back to this job but oh well money is important to me. Who the hell doesn't love money? Green = good right?
So for our tea sample today was Caramel and Rum. Iced. It is good when it is cold tea but I haven't try it as hot tea. This tea reminds me of you Xiao mainly because it has a hint of rum smell in it. Not that you smell like Rum but I guess because rum is an alcohol and alcohol reminds me of you mostly. Thank god I don't have to work here until next Friday because I am dead tired. I wish it is already next year. 2011!

Prison Break

I know this is late but I started to watch prison break. It is a cool series. The best thing about it is that I dream of myself breaking out a prison. Real cool huh? What can I do to get into prison.

Cancel

Class got cancel and don't I love the joy of that? Don't everybody love it when class got cancel? Certainly I do but it is even more tempting to cut the rest of the days. I don't know what to say but I don't feel like going to school especially my night class. What are her chances of not going to class tonight? Since this is a once a week class I got chances are high that she will show up. argh I hate school after all.

Anyway Shontelle said I am a slut because of something but I totally agree. Who the hell doesn't like hot people? Especially when they are good looking! Shoot. I can't believe i am blogging shit like this when i can be studying. I am so retarded. goodbye.

Rude

people are so fucking rude now a day. Who the fuck do you think you are? Don't fucking call me "that dude" when you were fucking introduced. Then again you're not someone that I should be tripping about since you're a no body to me anyway. And don't say you're gonna cut someone throat as a joke because no one thought it was funny. Argh.

Distant World again

I JUST WANT TO SAY I MISS YOU DISTANT WORLD! SHIT that is the time when I feel like school isnt important at all and all the characters were alive!

I refuse

Why must school always interfere with my private life! I hate school so bad if I didn't get stuck in class today for 3 hours I would have went to the WWE event which I can meet superstar. I will be so freaking piss off if I miss the chance to meet Randy Orton and Gail Kim. I HATE YOU SCHOOL WHY MUST YOU INTERFERE! I REFUSE. I hate you speech class!

I usually believe that being famous is the easy way out to get infinite amount of money. I want to be famous not because I want to but its because of the money so I don't have to worry about no money issue shit. By being famous, you get to be the center of attention! who wouldn't want that? Shit. I wish I was famous so I don't have to go to school.

Memories are Pearl and Tears are Diamond

I am currently at starbucks or as nora would say (singbuck). You get the idea. I am currently stuck on my essays and I really hate my essay because essay are the most retarded ever. I just heard a girl scream but it sounded like she is moaning instead.

Sometimes I feel that memories is really pearl because it looks so nice and memories can be expensive even though you can not buy it with money, Tears are like diamonds because your tears shine like diamonds when the sun shines on it. Memories and Tears goes with one just like Pearl and Diamond. IF only memories can be real again. I always wish that my memories can be real again. I would give up on anything just to live up to my memories. Well not anything but almost anything. IF there is a thing that allow me to go back I would. I won't be greedy but I just want to return to a certain year with a more mature thinking. Would it be too selfish to want the pearls and not diamond? Meaning I only want the memories but not tears. If birthday wish really do come true then I won't be greedy. I only have one wish. Please let my wish come true.

My memories are pearl and my tears are diamond. Goodnight to the world of reality and hello to the world of dreaming.

Effort

Where is the effort? When people are together, why do one make more effort more than the other? Is it because people who tend to put the effort more care to lose what they have right now? Or is it simply because they just care. Then what about the people who shows no effort or makes no effort? Are they the people who take "things" for granted easily? What about you, do you show enough effort to tell people that they mean something to you?

Dreams

Dreams. Dream can be a gift to everyone. Dream is a "thing" that can let you escape reality. Dream can either make you really happy or really sad or really scared. This is what make it so interesting. Recently I had the best dream of my life yet. I don't know how to describe it but it sure as hell took me away from reality. If I could choose I would live in that dream for the rest of my life. Have you ever have a dream where you don't want to wake up? Well this is the one for me. For a moment, I lost a touch of what reality was. When I woke up, I had a hard time telling if it was real or not. I was about to call Amy and Xiao and tell them that I am on top of my life. Soon enough.....I realize that it was only a dream. It was a nice illusion. Although I couldn't tell if I was in reality for a brief moment, that doesn't mean that I am crazy.

Yong!

THANKS YONG! I love you! Really appreciated for coming out =D

Amy

I am just glad that I have you. Because you are my only support pillar as well as my only shoulder rest area.

20 more mins

And this was where it all began....

Sidetrack

I hate getting sidetrack while doing hw because of TaeYang but I can't help it =X

Wedding Dress Collection

This is just the most awesome thing yet. I just want to share it with you guys. I didn't make this video and thanks kevin for showing me where the code was! hahaha... Never seen something like this before. He is so awesome.. even all of his dance move all seem so synchronize. Enjoy guys!

For you Xiao

Aren't you glad I am not that obsessed with TaeYang as I did with Raymond Lam?

Aggressive

In life, people have to be aggressive in order for them to win. Honestly who doesn't want to be the one that is winning? I would certainly love to win. Maybe it is because my expectation of things are high that is why in the end I have a big ass disappointment with me. I do not know where I am heading exactly with this blog, but I guess it is just some ways of venting out. Every time when I hear about it, I would get so heated up. I HATE you. I truly hate you maybe that is why I get so heated up. Also everytime when I hear about it, I feel like I lost, I am not aggressive enough. There are people who has a big mouth would do anything even betraying their friends just to be the winner and get what they want.

Why would I say I am lost? It is because you pick him over me. Who am I to blame? What do I expect when I am not aggressive enough? I hope that will all change though. I will start to become more aggressive so I won't get step all over. Even my close close friend in the past and present now always worry that I will get taken advantage by others. It is because of this one betrayal that fucked up my relationship. Rest assured, I will somehow pay you back. Triple the amount shit you fucked up. Even if i were to give revenge, I would do it in front of your face because I won't get as low as you. Karma is a bitch and I hope you are ready for it. In the end, I will win. Take this as a warning. Don't think that this is for you if you never betrayed me. Here is a big FUCK YOU for being a backstabber. Go ahead and cry and tell everyone that you're the good guy because you always tell people this and that and never shut your big ass mouth and exaggerate everything. ASSUMING shit that aren't even true. There are alot more but I am not going to leak it here. Be a fucking grown man and man up to it and solve your shit instead of running away from it. If you want to confront me about this, then bring it on.

I am not as aggressive as I should be to survive in this world is because I am afraid. I am afraid of how people would look at me and think that I am the bad guy or the bad person. Now that I think about it, I think it is okay for people to be aggressive in anywhere. Maybe I should start being more aggressive and open up. After all, hanging out with you for 2 years, more or less I did learn something from you. There is nothing to be afraid anymore especially since I let go my biggest support ever. Nothing left. I will change both inner and outer self.

I lost

I lost