Maybe it's just me?

I am at work and work is so boring in the morning. Why not use this time to blog while I am having a cup of green tea =D. This might be rhetorical question but do you ever want to get treat the way you treat others? Who doesn't right? What happen if you don't get the same treatment you were giving to people? Should you not care anymore? So you have been treating me so differently ever since you came back here permanently. I don't know whether it was something I did to make you start treating me this way or what but I'm not buying the way how you are treating me now. It's just things seems different now. We make plans but somehow you always seems to forget that we make plans and do something else, or we already planned something but you end up doing something else. And we talk alot less now too. I just feel like if I don't initiate to find and talk to you, you would not have talked to me. Why is that? Why must I be the first one to do everything first? Before I always went with whatever you wanted to do when you call me up but now when I just want to hang out for a bit, excuses always comes up. People always tell me to talk to you and let you know how I feel but I just don't know how to start and also because I don't want to be the first one to start everything. Can't you just go according to my schedule for once? But i suppose not since it seems really hard for you to do so. Maybe because you feel like you don't need me anymore since you don't feel lonely after moving back here permanently. And I thought you're different from everybody else. I was treating you nice because I was hoping that you'll treat me as a friend but now it doesn't even seem like I am being treated as a friend. I'm just a human with feelings after all. Who says nice guy doesn't have feelings? Tea of My day: 6576-Amakusa Traditional Kamairicha: Pan-fried green tea carefully processed by a very traditional method in Kumamoto. This tea produced a strong toasty flavor and a mild refreshing sweetness to it. Deep and rich in grassy flavor.