如果时间来到 (If Time Comes)

And it is spring break! I can't wait until spring break!!!!

I have 1 quiz and a midterm tomorrow.. I didn't even study =0 but I am pretty sure I will pass it regardless. I should have study today but I did nothing so I consider this is a unproductive day. Well I did have plans but I got cancel out sorta at the last minute again but not like it happen the first time anyway.

Something unexpected happen yesterday right when I got cancel out. Real unexpected. Just when I thought everything was going to be over. If time didn't come, I would have never forgotten you already but it's too late. The only thing for me to remember were the happy times we've been through together. Sad to say but time has move on...


Allow the drama plot to give a preview; So matching and perfect
He complements you; Everyone thinks that both of you will work out well
It's just like understanding it suddenly; Even though it's just admiration
By backing out, silence is even better
The strong desire to be close unexpectedly makes me slow down my footsteps
The closer one is, the earlier one gets hurt
Allow me to use a love song to weep and pour out my woes
The words that haven't been said; Leave them up in the sky ten thousand miles away
I'm too proud; Will rather use laughter to replace the utter gloominess
An unspoken love is the best
Please remember that if the time has arrived
Do stop in your track; Pleading not to make myself a joke by losing my balance and fall
Stepping onto the road of exit; Allow the return of the temporarily-borrowed; But who's there to cherish together (with me)?
Turning my back around must be quicker, before my tears are out; It's a pity that you haven't known
No fortune to grow old together; But neither is time being spent in vain
Loving with no regrets; The difficulty is even higher
On the most hurtful night, the starlight will continue to guide my path
Silence can be felt as well
Turning my back around must be quicker, before my tears are out; It seems like you've already known as well

Finally

Finally I get to sleep in tomorrow because I got no school! YAY! I was looking forward to hang out tomorrow but you're busy and I guess I have nothing to look forward anymore. Maybe I can do something else alone or I might just hit up the gym or something. Oh well of course I am sad about it but I'm not gonna be a bitch about it either because you just gotta do whatever you gotta do.

Why do you still try to talk to me when you obviously gave up?..... You got me good and I won't turn back this time around. I was surprise you try to talk to me when you were the one who didn't want things to be fixed. So what are you trying to do now?

"When did someone as lazy as I am find something worth protecting in you?"

Sigh I'm sad.

Unwanted.

明天以后 (After Tomorrow)

I am relief on the grade that I got on my bio class for my midterm. It determined my fate that I didn't have to drop that class. Though I wish I can because it is that DAMN boring. Sigh, usually my teacher suggest the class to walk on the stairs but today when Nora and I took the elevator (like we always do), we got caught by the teacher. =X and we're just like Hi. LOL

I just got back from the gym and I am so so 110% dead tired. And I mean dead tired.

Is it a good idea to be close with someone you don't trust? Probably not. It's like I am setting up a trap for myself. But but, I can't be fuck up either and be like bye your outa my life. I don't know what to do. At times I love talking to you and at times I just hate the fact that....... Maybe I am just trap in the past like I usually am. shit.

After tomorrow, will everything be fine?
After tomorrow, will everything go back to normal?
After tomorrow, will I gain back my comfort zone?
After tomorrow, will I finally flow like water?
After tomorrow, will fate open a new door to my life?

I hate the feeling of no responding.

Exhausted

I am so so so tired so I didn't go to my last class so now I am at home. I will nap after I blog this. and I still have to study for my test tonight argh. I feel like I am somewhat screwed because I totally don't remember what the class was talking about on this chapter. Damn, and I really want to skip tonight if it weren't for that test.

I've been playing RE5!!!!!!!!! w00t! its finally out and its really enjoyable because it has co-op in it. Damn, its like 2009 right now and I've been following this series of game since 1998, makes me hella old!...aside from that I also been playing SF4 it looks hella sick and its fun. We should all get together and have a VIDEO game night.

浮生若水 (Life is Like Water)

Life is like water.
Our life will flow just like water.
Until the current pushes back.
But in the end, water will continue to flow.
"Running water never grows stale...so keep on flowing"
Empty your mind
Be flawless and shapeless like water.
And see where life will take you.
Be like water and continue to flow without stopping my friend.

DAMAGED

I don't know where to begin or what to talk about because I don't know. I don't know why but I suddenly just feel so down. Thinking back like last entire month sucks. I don't understand or know how it end up the way it is with just one simple conversation. But life is unfair isn't it? I am exhausted both mentally and physically. Why does my title say Damaged? Because it is! It is like some kind of curse. I lost something that I really cherish. I lost trust on this person. Drama was building up last month and it killed everything. AND many many more that is school related.

I don't know who or where to run to when I want to just want to talk to just one person. One always seem so busy! ('o') while the other one I don't trust. I feel so lost and confuse. Though I am trying to manage it and just be whoever. I once thought that I have the guiding light but it led me to the darkness.

I catch up with quite a few people last week, well people that I don't really see but still close. Talking to them really makes me see who I myself is, or how the way I was acting in the past. If anything I admit, it was partly my fault.

School is 2morrow, and I am wondering if I should drop any class..... goodies.

Start of a New Day

NEW DAY AND NEW MONTH. Well a little late for new month haha.

Anyway, I had a quiz on LRN 50 and blah. I think I bombed it. I wrote down study cards and I get to use them on the test but somehow the stuff that I wrote in the study card doesnt belong in that test. Whatever. Next up was English, and I had to do problems again like I always do when we have group participation, though I made Ann read out the problem. Then meet up with Nora and just pig out in the study room like we always do. ASAM was boring, I wasn't gonna go but I thought he might take roll so I went anyway. Class was boring as usual. THEN my day finally end and I get to sleep =D.

Gym at night was awsome. I saw Andy there. There are alot of people there and I went into a sauna. I was a bit hesistant because I am shy, but my cousin was there and I wasn't nervous =D.
Tahts the end of that and now I am blogging.

The moon looked really awesome tonight, because the cloud was moving really fast. Making it look like I'm in a anime. The moon look so pretty makes me think about things. It is always the stars and moon. I'm sorta stuck right now because I am not sure whether I should try with you or just give up. I want to give up sometimes but yet I want you there sometimes. Got me crazy.

I'm tired now so I am gonna bounce, goodbye.