YEsterday I wasn't really happy already. During my asam, my last clas. We were watching this video about Chinatown. I saw chinese play ground, commodore stockton, and the building of AWRC. Right at that instant, I knew that i had miss all those places. In my year 07-08, I was working at AWRC. I really miss working with the people I had did and also the kids. Those were really really great times.
Then later on at night I was realllllllll emo because... sigh I'm not even going to go there.
THEN LATER ON AT THE REAL late night, I was so piss but I kept it inside. Someone pissed me off literally. It is always like this. I am really really getting tired of it. REAL sick of it. It seems like you are a bullshitter now, always coming up with excuses....
I wish you are here right now so I can have someone to talk to.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Best Day Yet This Year!
Today was sorta a bad day in a way before I head out to Econ class, I had found out something that was so devastated but I am not going to share it because I can not share it.
One thing for sure is that I am so so so so so Happy that I met up with one of my old (young) friend from work back when I was at AWRC. That jerk had changed so much but I will give that person an A cuz that person said I got skinnier! =D, We didn't really do anything but we chilled. I was beating his ass down. J/K. this friend that I am talking about is Ben. After meeting up with him, I grabbed a lunch/dinner on my way home. I watched so anime and study but I ended up sleeping. When it was testing time, I think I did an OK job on it. Blah.
Tomorrow is Thursday and I am not looking foward to Bio Class again. BORING.
SHORT AND SIMPLE IS WHAT I STRIVE FOR!
One thing for sure is that I am so so so so so Happy that I met up with one of my old (young) friend from work back when I was at AWRC. That jerk had changed so much but I will give that person an A cuz that person said I got skinnier! =D, We didn't really do anything but we chilled. I was beating his ass down. J/K. this friend that I am talking about is Ben. After meeting up with him, I grabbed a lunch/dinner on my way home. I watched so anime and study but I ended up sleeping. When it was testing time, I think I did an OK job on it. Blah.
Tomorrow is Thursday and I am not looking foward to Bio Class again. BORING.
SHORT AND SIMPLE IS WHAT I STRIVE FOR!
Sunday, January 25, 2009
I'm tired.
Happy Lunar New Year!
I went to get Milk Green Tea with my Milk Tea Buddy. We chatted for a bit and I wasn't sure if I can help her with what she is dealing with or not but hopefully I did. ..
Work was chaotic today. Even more chaos than yesterday. Long ass lines man I was soooooooooo tired. Time when by fast.
There is something that I do want to talk about but I don't think blogging it here would be best because I'm trying to keep it low key. Whatever.
My blog is short because I want it to be simple. =D
I went to get Milk Green Tea with my Milk Tea Buddy. We chatted for a bit and I wasn't sure if I can help her with what she is dealing with or not but hopefully I did. ..
Work was chaotic today. Even more chaos than yesterday. Long ass lines man I was soooooooooo tired. Time when by fast.
There is something that I do want to talk about but I don't think blogging it here would be best because I'm trying to keep it low key. Whatever.
My blog is short because I want it to be simple. =D
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
For This One Person.....
Everytime when I'm Thinking of You
I just don't know what to do
Pinch myself when I'm dreaming of you
Making sure you can love me too
Hours slipped away
All my happy days
Though I'm acting cool
When I'm feeling blue
Just to show you that I'm through with you
Well I never wanted it to
How can a love so beautiful ever slipped away
When I get to the place
I swear I write you a song each and every day
Oh god, I'm missing you, it's driving me so insane
Standing all alone in pouring rain
Can't explain all my pain
I just don't know what to do
Pinch myself when I'm dreaming of you
Making sure you can love me too
Hours slipped away
All my happy days
Though I'm acting cool
When I'm feeling blue
Just to show you that I'm through with you
Well I never wanted it to
How can a love so beautiful ever slipped away
When I get to the place
I swear I write you a song each and every day
Oh god, I'm missing you, it's driving me so insane
Standing all alone in pouring rain
Can't explain all my pain
Sunday, January 18, 2009
For this one special girl...
You're always on my mind
All day just all the time
You're everything to me
Brightest star to let me see
You touch me in my dreams
We kiss in every scene
I pray to be with you through rain and shiny days
I'll love you till I die
Deep as sea
Wide as sky
The beauty of our love paints rainbows
Everywhere we go
Need you all my life
You're my hope
You're my pride
In your arms I find my heaven
In your eyes my sea and sky
May life be our love paradise
All day just all the time
You're everything to me
Brightest star to let me see
You touch me in my dreams
We kiss in every scene
I pray to be with you through rain and shiny days
I'll love you till I die
Deep as sea
Wide as sky
The beauty of our love paints rainbows
Everywhere we go
Need you all my life
You're my hope
You're my pride
In your arms I find my heaven
In your eyes my sea and sky
May life be our love paradise
Belated
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AMY!
Yesterday morning we were suppose to go get breakfast but amy texted me and i mis-interpret it I guess. So I thought breakfast was cancel. Then I decided to buy food for just the 2 of us and hot chocolate and cake for her. We ate for a little bit then met up with the guys. They were late. freaking 11 became 12.
Anyhow I was already full so I didn't feel like eating at all. Though the food looked so tempting hah. Anyway when we were done, I got the check and paid for it. Apparently SOMEONE got mad at me for doing that. I tried talking to that person but that person was being mean to me for the first time. It made me feel emo and ruined my day. I was just being nice.
Now I am waiting for my ipod to get sold so I can get a new mp3 player. So I made a scrap book for amy and a bracelet. I hope she likes them. The scrap book is kinda messy cuz it was made by me but nonetheless it is from my heart.
HOT CHOCOLATE <3 Though I want iced mocha next time.
Yesterday morning we were suppose to go get breakfast but amy texted me and i mis-interpret it I guess. So I thought breakfast was cancel. Then I decided to buy food for just the 2 of us and hot chocolate and cake for her. We ate for a little bit then met up with the guys. They were late. freaking 11 became 12.
Anyhow I was already full so I didn't feel like eating at all. Though the food looked so tempting hah. Anyway when we were done, I got the check and paid for it. Apparently SOMEONE got mad at me for doing that. I tried talking to that person but that person was being mean to me for the first time. It made me feel emo and ruined my day. I was just being nice.
Now I am waiting for my ipod to get sold so I can get a new mp3 player. So I made a scrap book for amy and a bracelet. I hope she likes them. The scrap book is kinda messy cuz it was made by me but nonetheless it is from my heart.
HOT CHOCOLATE <3 Though I want iced mocha next time.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Tired, Exhausted, Heartbroken, EMO
Lets have a recap of my class from yesterday and today!
Yesterday, the only class that I enjoyed being in was ASAM. It was freaking awesome man. Times seems to go by fast. Then it was night class. There was still 30 mins before class start so Kevin and I went and made our HARD SOLID PHOTO ID! YAY!... We rushed back to class and I was hella freaking tired. When the class start the teacher was like he's not gonna add if he runs out of syllabus and I was like OH SHIT. But then I manage to add it and I was like GREAT!... Hmm I feel differnt at night class. I feel like people are more serious about school during night class than the people in the morning class.
Today was my 2nd day at biology. GOD it was boring but surprisingly I didn't fall asleep. I did my hw for Learning Assistance class. During our break, Nora and I decided to call Ann just to make her awake.... We laughed hella loud when Ann picked up and her voice is hella loud. Oh wells, so funny. Class ended and we hella rush out of class.
then went to work and it was chaotic today. So many product came in and it was just AHHH!!! Then soon enough I recieved a text from Qui.
I was thinkign fine, I'll meet him up to give him something cuz I needed to get Amy's present as well. So I went to stones and I was early. I walked around and I decided to go to GODIVA to visit Heidi. I finally got Amy's present too but I looked like a girl carrying that bag =0.
So Qui arrived so I gave him the stuff. I left but then I was thinking if I should get my keys or not. Without thinking I was like can I get back my keys. I was thinking if I did the right choice or not. Did I really want it this way? Did I really wanted it to end it this way? I really don't know. I feel so fluster when it comes to stuff like this. It just kinda sucks to see him. I mean in all honesty I feel like crap. I am starting to feel emo. But then I won't let this affect me in school. I gotta prove PIGGY WRONG! and that I am all about determination in school for THIS SEMESTER! Anyway I feel really down. I mean who would really ever want to end a friendship? But at the same time I am very tired for being the one who is holding the bridge.
Only if you are smart enough to find this on your own so you can read it and understand how I feel.
Now I am just eating chips and blog and gonna sleep soon. I am going to have this big surprise for Amy. Not big but for sure she will definitely like her present. ^_____________^
Yesterday, the only class that I enjoyed being in was ASAM. It was freaking awesome man. Times seems to go by fast. Then it was night class. There was still 30 mins before class start so Kevin and I went and made our HARD SOLID PHOTO ID! YAY!... We rushed back to class and I was hella freaking tired. When the class start the teacher was like he's not gonna add if he runs out of syllabus and I was like OH SHIT. But then I manage to add it and I was like GREAT!... Hmm I feel differnt at night class. I feel like people are more serious about school during night class than the people in the morning class.
Today was my 2nd day at biology. GOD it was boring but surprisingly I didn't fall asleep. I did my hw for Learning Assistance class. During our break, Nora and I decided to call Ann just to make her awake.... We laughed hella loud when Ann picked up and her voice is hella loud. Oh wells, so funny. Class ended and we hella rush out of class.
then went to work and it was chaotic today. So many product came in and it was just AHHH!!! Then soon enough I recieved a text from Qui.
I was thinkign fine, I'll meet him up to give him something cuz I needed to get Amy's present as well. So I went to stones and I was early. I walked around and I decided to go to GODIVA to visit Heidi. I finally got Amy's present too but I looked like a girl carrying that bag =0.
So Qui arrived so I gave him the stuff. I left but then I was thinking if I should get my keys or not. Without thinking I was like can I get back my keys. I was thinking if I did the right choice or not. Did I really want it this way? Did I really wanted it to end it this way? I really don't know. I feel so fluster when it comes to stuff like this. It just kinda sucks to see him. I mean in all honesty I feel like crap. I am starting to feel emo. But then I won't let this affect me in school. I gotta prove PIGGY WRONG! and that I am all about determination in school for THIS SEMESTER! Anyway I feel really down. I mean who would really ever want to end a friendship? But at the same time I am very tired for being the one who is holding the bridge.
Only if you are smart enough to find this on your own so you can read it and understand how I feel.
Now I am just eating chips and blog and gonna sleep soon. I am going to have this big surprise for Amy. Not big but for sure she will definitely like her present. ^_____________^
Monday, January 12, 2009
Concert Sick...
I was concert sick today when I was at the libarary today waiting for class to start. I was listening to Raymond's song that he had performed at the concert, it made me sad....literally. I wanted to be at the concert again. what a bummer....
When class started, I feel a bit anxious because it's been so long since I've been in school again. I was a bit scared I should say. My first class was Learning Assistance. thank god I have Nora in my classes because I don't like to go to classes alone. that class was boring but I can't let that get in my way anymore.
Next up was English, I was tehre with Ann. She was trying to add so I hope she makes it. We just went over the syllabus in that class. The teacher seem pretty cool and it was wayyyyyyyy better than my previous 2 english class. I think I can do well in this class, hopefully.
Next class is ASAM (Asian American Study). I was so happy to learn that Leah is in the same class with me. I saved a seat for Nora too but too bad she was late cuz apparently she was chasing this hot guy according to her. That class was funny. It should be easy. Oh yeah, Phi is also trying to add that class! And I know quite a few people in that class.
Next up is Chinese. I thought it was cantonese but then I learn that it is Mandarin so I decided to drop it. Now I am going to try and add a ECON class on wed with Kevin and hopefully I can make it.
When class started, I feel a bit anxious because it's been so long since I've been in school again. I was a bit scared I should say. My first class was Learning Assistance. thank god I have Nora in my classes because I don't like to go to classes alone. that class was boring but I can't let that get in my way anymore.
Next up was English, I was tehre with Ann. She was trying to add so I hope she makes it. We just went over the syllabus in that class. The teacher seem pretty cool and it was wayyyyyyyy better than my previous 2 english class. I think I can do well in this class, hopefully.
Next class is ASAM (Asian American Study). I was so happy to learn that Leah is in the same class with me. I saved a seat for Nora too but too bad she was late cuz apparently she was chasing this hot guy according to her. That class was funny. It should be easy. Oh yeah, Phi is also trying to add that class! And I know quite a few people in that class.
Next up is Chinese. I thought it was cantonese but then I learn that it is Mandarin so I decided to drop it. Now I am going to try and add a ECON class on wed with Kevin and hopefully I can make it.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Waiting...
I am currently waiting for my cousin to come out of shower so we can game some more. Sad to say but I am once starting school AGAIN. Hopefully I can stay focus since I lost track 2 times already. Hard to say but I don't have a passion for school. I don't think many people does.
Sometimes, I feel like the more you try and avoid the things that bother you the most, the more it will come back and bite you. It's gotten to the point where it is annoying. And I really don't know where I am heading at =P... This time there are only 2 things that I am focusing on. School and work, nothing more, nothing less. I made a huge mistake by putting 110% trust and time on this one person that I shouldn't have. Now it is time to accommodate what I had lost. Blah.. Enough with this.
I feel like setting a long term goal can be a bad thing. There can be many set backs and discouraging moment. So from here on I will only have short term goal, one after another. Hopefully I can achieve them.
I want to quit school. Simply because I don't feel like going to school or rather I hate it. HATE IT. Then again shouldn't I be happy that I can go to college? Why am I not happy at all. I told myself many time that I should be lucky to go to college but I don't feel that way. If I can I would give my position in college to someone who reallys want to go to college. Sigh. Only if life can be much more easier.
School is starting on monday and I am not ready at all. I am not ready to be stuck in class for 1 hour sleeping and doing nothing. I hate going to school just to look at the clock ticking.
My schedule is
Monday- English 9:00-10:00, Career 10:00-11:00, break 11:00-12:00, ASAM 12:00-1:00, Chinese 6:00-9:30
Tuesday/Thursday- Biology 8:00-11:00
Wed Fri- Same as monday w/o the chinese class
Is this schedule crazy or what? I hope it is march right now so I can get Eric Lam third album.... Wait did I said Eric? He wish he has a album, I'm TALKING ABOUT RAYMOND LAM! =P
Sometimes, I feel like the more you try and avoid the things that bother you the most, the more it will come back and bite you. It's gotten to the point where it is annoying. And I really don't know where I am heading at =P... This time there are only 2 things that I am focusing on. School and work, nothing more, nothing less. I made a huge mistake by putting 110% trust and time on this one person that I shouldn't have. Now it is time to accommodate what I had lost. Blah.. Enough with this.
I feel like setting a long term goal can be a bad thing. There can be many set backs and discouraging moment. So from here on I will only have short term goal, one after another. Hopefully I can achieve them.
I want to quit school. Simply because I don't feel like going to school or rather I hate it. HATE IT. Then again shouldn't I be happy that I can go to college? Why am I not happy at all. I told myself many time that I should be lucky to go to college but I don't feel that way. If I can I would give my position in college to someone who reallys want to go to college. Sigh. Only if life can be much more easier.
School is starting on monday and I am not ready at all. I am not ready to be stuck in class for 1 hour sleeping and doing nothing. I hate going to school just to look at the clock ticking.
My schedule is
Monday- English 9:00-10:00, Career 10:00-11:00, break 11:00-12:00, ASAM 12:00-1:00, Chinese 6:00-9:30
Tuesday/Thursday- Biology 8:00-11:00
Wed Fri- Same as monday w/o the chinese class
Is this schedule crazy or what? I hope it is march right now so I can get Eric Lam third album.... Wait did I said Eric? He wish he has a album, I'm TALKING ABOUT RAYMOND LAM! =P
Sunday, January 4, 2009
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