School

School is a bitch right now because it just is. I shouldn't have taken 5 classes this semester and with econ 3 and accountant together at the same time. I should not have take speech and english both at the same time as well. It feels like hell and the classes that i am taking require so much more time of me than i can give. I've been focusing hard on accounting and guess what? I am doing good in that class but i've been focusing so much in that class that i am neglecting my other class. WHy can't i be as smart as you guys. I am so not school material. I hate school. WHy can't i focus more in class and study more or put more effort. I hate it. I am still tripping out about my speech tmr as I have nothing to talk about at the moment. I am so behind in school and i hate it. Only if school doesn't require so much time. I lost the drive to transfer this year. I should have taken my time so that I wouldn't be pressuring myself. I miss the funs in LA. I miss you XIao JIMMy and rOnaLD. I wish you guys can be here right now because it just makes everything feel so right. I just want my classes to be over for this semester. I want speech to be done right now.

I just don't like my life at the moment. I shouldn't be complaining because there are people way far worse than I am but I can't help it. I can't even watch prison break without falling asleep now because I am too tired. Everyday when I get home all I do is just want to sleep. I have no days off now. One of the days is always either work or school and both! Why can't I enjoy prison break like i did before? Why can't i wake up without having the feeling of going to work and hate it. Why must I love teas? Sigh. My only escape is the land of dream land. I can't even find the time to talk to gossip buddy.