Once again

I am left out by each and every single one of you. I'm done trying.

Dai Lo B!

Thanks man!

I really like the headphone you got me. I've been using it ever since yesterday and I am loving it like crazy. It's been a long ass time since I actually got some good headphone! Thanks again!I've been blasting my music through these headphones. I really appreciate these headphone! T Love your ass Dai Lo B but you still gotta listen to me cuz I am older than you! =D... So.. much has been going on. I've been re-evaluating how people has been treating me. Some treat me like I am made out of ATM machine, while others treat me like shit...less than a friend. Something just doesn't feel like the same anymore when I am around them. Just like the times when I hang out with Edmund, it doesn't seem as real as it was back in the days. I guess back in the days when he was still in Davis, he would like text me at least but now its just like ..... exactly like those dots. It's just feel so fake for some reason. Whether he is being fake or not, I have no idea but at least thats the feeling I get. I'm not gonna dwell on it anymore or whatever because I already said all I really needed to said on my last post. At least I can tell myself that I tried. If he doesn't want to be friends that is fine. I rather him just tell me strait up than to be fake. There are like a couple of more people too but ehh.. they're all the same to me now.

Maybe it's just me?

I am at work and work is so boring in the morning. Why not use this time to blog while I am having a cup of green tea =D. This might be rhetorical question but do you ever want to get treat the way you treat others? Who doesn't right? What happen if you don't get the same treatment you were giving to people? Should you not care anymore? So you have been treating me so differently ever since you came back here permanently. I don't know whether it was something I did to make you start treating me this way or what but I'm not buying the way how you are treating me now. It's just things seems different now. We make plans but somehow you always seems to forget that we make plans and do something else, or we already planned something but you end up doing something else. And we talk alot less now too. I just feel like if I don't initiate to find and talk to you, you would not have talked to me. Why is that? Why must I be the first one to do everything first? Before I always went with whatever you wanted to do when you call me up but now when I just want to hang out for a bit, excuses always comes up. People always tell me to talk to you and let you know how I feel but I just don't know how to start and also because I don't want to be the first one to start everything. Can't you just go according to my schedule for once? But i suppose not since it seems really hard for you to do so. Maybe because you feel like you don't need me anymore since you don't feel lonely after moving back here permanently. And I thought you're different from everybody else. I was treating you nice because I was hoping that you'll treat me as a friend but now it doesn't even seem like I am being treated as a friend. I'm just a human with feelings after all. Who says nice guy doesn't have feelings? Tea of My day: 6576-Amakusa Traditional Kamairicha: Pan-fried green tea carefully processed by a very traditional method in Kumamoto. This tea produced a strong toasty flavor and a mild refreshing sweetness to it. Deep and rich in grassy flavor.

New Beginning

Today is first day of school for Spring semester. For some reason I am feeling very nervous and anxious. I don't know why I feel this way. I am currently sitting in the library for my class to start. I don't want my class to start anytime soon. I just don't feel like going to class but I just have to suck it up. There have been so much that is happening lately. I don't even know where to begin. There is only a few of you that knows about it and thanks to you for listening. I am going to keep this post simple and short. I don't want it to go any longer lol. Just one more week and you can finally RIP. I love you.

Holy Cow!

Holy Cow It's been awhile since I update this. Every once in awhile I would love to blog here though no one I know read this anymore and this cannot be public anymore haha. Do anyone still remember that our blog exist? Probably not. Boy oh boy, am I glad this semester is over or what. It has been a week into my break and I am somewhat sad as people are leaving after this week. This year, not only did I get to reconnect with some people like Aimee, but also I gained new friends that I thought I would've never gained such as Edmund. Yeah. It might seem strange to people that Edmund and I are getting close. Don't ask me how or why it happens. I guess it just happens. Anyhow I am glad. Next Aimee. I am seriously glad that we get to reconnect after all those bs that was thrown at us. I love how we get to talk and interact and text message and skype with each other. =]. Most importantly, I can reach you whenever I want to. Another person that I am glad that I make a connection with or I guess I hang out alot more during this break would be Jimbo. We never hang out as much until this year, where I felt like we hung out alot even though sometimes are hang out times are short or merely just 30 mins. Nonetheless I am glad to have you people. So a day or two ago, I went to livermore to shop with this super duper great friend of mine. The atmosphere at livermore was so different compare to the malls that I've been to. I think it is because it is a open mall type kind of thing. Whereas all the mall I've been to are closed roof mall. Anyhow, its another outlet mall and nothing spectacular. Hmm so the store we spent the most time in was Levi's. I got my jeans in like less than a min or so. My friend had to try his jeans on so he did................ WHile I was waiting for him, outside of the fitting room, this trigger my mind to think of something way back in the past. October 8th 2007 was a really old time to even remember. However that was the first time I actually did like a real actual shopping with my best guy friend then. Man.. that time was one of the time that I really enjoyed and it was a long time since I was able to shop like that. Hmm I remember he wanted me to try on some dress shirt and some jackets, but I was so embarrassed or something and I was taking kind of long. He actually went into my fitting space and helped me put on the clothes. I remember this like it was still in the back of my head. My eyes were looking side ways like I was really embarrassed or something. This was so much fun... The only complaint I had was that I wished it was a girl with me trying on clothes instead of him! Anyhow I zoned back into reality and that was the end of my night.

Unexpectedly

Life is always throwing you curve ball whether you like it or not. People would've never imagine where they will be within a year or so. 2012 as of now has been one hell of a ride for me since the beginning of this year like march through april. What can I say. It seems like I am getting closer to graduate. Everybody is graduating this year too. I believe. If not everybody then most of us will. They are all mostly worry about finding a job. Me on the other hand is happy to get the fuck out of school and just take up whatever job I can find. Probably working as a stripper is my #1 choice. Actually looking back, I think I am bless to have what I have in life. Not necessarily the things that I want but you can't always get what you want and I am fine with that. The last two years, I have been to the most wrestling event I ever been to and I am thankful for that. I never imagined that I could go at least 3 times a year to these wrestling event. Maybe because I know how to drive now. I remember the first and only time I went was back in high school freshman year. Anyway now that I've been to other, not just some weakass one but Summerslam is a big deal. I am glad. To be able to live as long as I have and see the birth of Final Fantasy 4 all the way till final fantasy 14 and more is also a bless. Man if God makes me walk away tmr from life I have no problem doing so. It's been a year since Xiao came back. I am glad it is back like the old times again. Having her presence here in San Francisco is just one of the best. Actually I would love to have everyone back here in San Francisco even though we all do our own thing sometimes. I am glad that I am able to spend time with the people that I really love and the people that I can call friends this summer. Xiao Jimmy and Aimee and of course the others too but these 3 are always MIA to school or something. People that I always love Amy, Aimee, Xiao,George, Kevin, Jimmy, Yong, and Ronald (no specific order). Thanks for always being there guys.

How many day has it been?

Seems like its been a long time since April. I am glad that this is finally over. I know we are not the right one for each other. Isn't it funny when you thought someone will understand you especially since we're on the same boat? I didn't think so. I wish we would never end up the way we did. I wish we are on speaking terms at least but what good does it do now? I don't even know if I can accept you even as a friend. I don't know how my mind would react to it. Until then, its over.