whats the point of blogging when no one else is blogging? I don't know but everyone should blog again.
I am sorry about everything. I feel so bad. I feel like I was wasting your text and for real I guess I got carried away. I wouldn't say I was piss off at you and I know you didn't plan on to flake out again like you always do. I guess I got really annoyed of it but I know I shouldn't be because something else important needs to be taken care of. I guess I need to leave you alone. You've been a great friend I guess and what have I been to you? Maybe nothing but a real jerk. I can't help it though i guess its because everything adds up and I feel like shit. Maybe because I keep on getting flake out by you yet I feel like I asked too much. I tried so hard to not let it bother me but doesn't it sucks when you feel like you're the only one who is trying? Geo said that once you try enough and if the person treats you the same like they give you a feeling of unwanted then you should stop talking to them. Should I stop talking or trying then? I AM A ASS. =[
2morrow is a new day. You have a big day ahead of you. It is also a sad day. You need to keep your head up high and live for that someone and yourself. No matter what it is, I am sure he doesn't want you to be sad. He will be watching you from above. Be strong, be brave and face the challenge in your life. This will be the last thing I want to say to you.
YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU! I don't know what to say to you -_-' (I am talking about another person now). Just be who you are and when you are down just let it all out. No use of pretending something that you are not.
There are something I never get tired of. That is RL. I got so much on my mind but I wish I can share it to someone. Oh wells.
I want to leave for a vacation. I want to go to Hong Kong so I can see different people. Mostly the concert. But I want to leave and take a break!
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Monday, May 25, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Lets Get Wet
June is approaching and I DEFINITELY REGRET
This world is too dry; Only waiting for a wave
Then passion will burst past the defenses; Sleeking in all areas
Casting a look in your direction;My Palm is always filled with perspiration
Tears are condensed on the face; Looking forward to its release
My Pulse is beating a few more rounds
The massive flow from my body; Staying faithful to its original nature of flow
Finally covering up Earth; Revealing all what it's worth
The water flows longer along the cheeks; The back turns entirely wet as well
My Heart and soul becomes confluent with yours;Our Spiritual desires being tightly bounded
Heard that love intention combining with perspiration; The result's quite eerily mysterious
Mixing up together; Silently waiting to be provoked
Each time I see you; The energy buried within my entire body
All turned into tears and perspiration; Spreading rapidly over a thousand miles
An unstoppable massive flow; Given to this dried-up Earth
Surging out precious petroleum; Igniting up everything brightly
If able to find an accomplice; Arrogance will be present if wanted
When the forehead is being moistened beforehand; Who's willing to pursue over it?
Perspiration flows from the back of your hand
Lands behind my neck and arms
All the way straight into my heart
This world is too dry; Only waiting for a wave
Then passion will burst past the defenses; Sleeking in all areas
Casting a look in your direction;My Palm is always filled with perspiration
Tears are condensed on the face; Looking forward to its release
My Pulse is beating a few more rounds
The massive flow from my body; Staying faithful to its original nature of flow
Finally covering up Earth; Revealing all what it's worth
The water flows longer along the cheeks; The back turns entirely wet as well
My Heart and soul becomes confluent with yours;Our Spiritual desires being tightly bounded
Heard that love intention combining with perspiration; The result's quite eerily mysterious
Mixing up together; Silently waiting to be provoked
Each time I see you; The energy buried within my entire body
All turned into tears and perspiration; Spreading rapidly over a thousand miles
An unstoppable massive flow; Given to this dried-up Earth
Surging out precious petroleum; Igniting up everything brightly
If able to find an accomplice; Arrogance will be present if wanted
When the forehead is being moistened beforehand; Who's willing to pursue over it?
Perspiration flows from the back of your hand
Lands behind my neck and arms
All the way straight into my heart
Thursday, May 7, 2009
THANKS XIAO
You're the best Xiao. I knew you were gonna pull it down for me. I love you. Thanks to you I regain a lil bit of my confidence. I love you! Thanks for everything even though everything was a mess. It was funny though even though it was something serious. You are awesome and truly an amazing girl.
IT was about time that I get to watch DUEL 2 on TV instead of streaming it online. I should be sleeping now but blah. Duel 2 was great! So far both my boy and girl Landon and Jenn are still in the game. I am happy for them. I found out something funny about this show today. =X
Sometimes, I don't know what to do. Everytime when I start to forget or let go, it just comes back. I can't lie and be like "oh yeah everything is okay, just stab me more" because I can't. Doing it once was already good enough to show me how much I should really gives. If you feel like this is directed towards you then yes it must be you. If not don't trip about it. I don't want to hear or see or aim ME if its them or not. You should pretty much know what you did to determine if its you or not. Some people can forget and forgive. I thought I could forget but I can't. BUT I forgave you because everyone deserve a 2nd chance. I just can't forget.
By any chance if you guys read this. Do not come and visit me at work because I want my alone time. AND I MEAN IT. Go ahead and try and see what the consequences are.
IT was about time that I get to watch DUEL 2 on TV instead of streaming it online. I should be sleeping now but blah. Duel 2 was great! So far both my boy and girl Landon and Jenn are still in the game. I am happy for them. I found out something funny about this show today. =X
Sometimes, I don't know what to do. Everytime when I start to forget or let go, it just comes back. I can't lie and be like "oh yeah everything is okay, just stab me more" because I can't. Doing it once was already good enough to show me how much I should really gives. If you feel like this is directed towards you then yes it must be you. If not don't trip about it. I don't want to hear or see or aim ME if its them or not. You should pretty much know what you did to determine if its you or not. Some people can forget and forgive. I thought I could forget but I can't. BUT I forgave you because everyone deserve a 2nd chance. I just can't forget.
By any chance if you guys read this. Do not come and visit me at work because I want my alone time. AND I MEAN IT. Go ahead and try and see what the consequences are.
Monday, April 20, 2009
Hot
PEOPLE JUST NEED TO GET THE FUCK OUT AND FUCK OFF.
Today and yesterday was sooooooooooo hot. There wasn't any difference I believe, or today was more hot. Either way it was hot. Class was alright today. I didn't do much in all three of my classes. After my last class I went to lunch with Georgie and Heidi, and it was funny. We went to this japanese place in westlake, and its better than any other japanese I've been to so far. Now I am here blogging and seriously the heat is killing me.
Why do I feel like you are not real as a friend? It seems like when you're done with me you would go on to the next one and just kinda completely being fucked up. Every time when you get on my good side, you are somehow ended up in the bad side. What are you? I feel like I don't know you. What the hell.
I gave you another shot the other day. Somehow I believed we can still make it but for some reason I feel like I am being more drifted away from your life and your life. Somehow you don't even notice how I feel yet you still pretend like everything is fine. Should I let go? If I decide to let go then I am going to start to have to be cruel to you. I have to be cruel to be kind. I'm just not gonna care anymore. You pushed me away.
Whatever, maybe this stupid heat got into me or something.
Today and yesterday was sooooooooooo hot. There wasn't any difference I believe, or today was more hot. Either way it was hot. Class was alright today. I didn't do much in all three of my classes. After my last class I went to lunch with Georgie and Heidi, and it was funny. We went to this japanese place in westlake, and its better than any other japanese I've been to so far. Now I am here blogging and seriously the heat is killing me.
Why do I feel like you are not real as a friend? It seems like when you're done with me you would go on to the next one and just kinda completely being fucked up. Every time when you get on my good side, you are somehow ended up in the bad side. What are you? I feel like I don't know you. What the hell.
I gave you another shot the other day. Somehow I believed we can still make it but for some reason I feel like I am being more drifted away from your life and your life. Somehow you don't even notice how I feel yet you still pretend like everything is fine. Should I let go? If I decide to let go then I am going to start to have to be cruel to you. I have to be cruel to be kind. I'm just not gonna care anymore. You pushed me away.
Whatever, maybe this stupid heat got into me or something.
Friday, April 10, 2009
The DUEL 2
I just finished watching the first episode of the DUEL 2 and it is somewhat interesting.
This time around I am rooting for my boy Landon and girl Jenn!
This time around I am rooting for my boy Landon and girl Jenn!
Sunday, April 5, 2009
June 18th-19th
I am really depress right now. Raymond is going to have his first official concert in June in HK. Sigh, I wish I can somehow go there and see him in person again. I am so tired, because of working and the gym! I need sleep! I think I am lacking of sleep. Everyone is having fun in LA! and I wish I can go down there.
It was nice talking to you on the phone, but half of the time I was really tired. I hope things got sorted out but nonetheless I know I won't be expecting anything from you ever but that doesn't mean it is a bad thing. I dunno. tell me what you want? Do you want me to continue to expect from you or not anymore?...Sometimes, it is really hard for me to tell if you are lieing or not especially after that one time. Nonetheless, I want us to work on it.
Tell me how you feel too.
I wish we could have went out on sat.
It was nice talking to you on the phone, but half of the time I was really tired. I hope things got sorted out but nonetheless I know I won't be expecting anything from you ever but that doesn't mean it is a bad thing. I dunno. tell me what you want? Do you want me to continue to expect from you or not anymore?...Sometimes, it is really hard for me to tell if you are lieing or not especially after that one time. Nonetheless, I want us to work on it.
Tell me how you feel too.
I wish we could have went out on sat.
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